This year changed everything for me. I had a very hard time and felt like I just couldn’t keep up with the world. In truth, I was very depressed. Sometimes we work ourselves tired, until there’s no life left in us. I was a student, trainee journalist, radio show host, girlfriend and mother all rolled into one. Let alone how stressful that was, I had absolutely no time for just me. in fact, by the time I gained some perspective I realised I had no time for my family; sleep was the only thing on my mind. I have an auto-immune disease, so continuing this way was asking for collapse.
The saying “it’s always darkest before dawn” springs to mind when trying to tell you just how bad it all got, and then gradually better than it ever had been in my life. With a little determination, my garden now looks like this:
Some other changes came about. I spent quite a few penniless weeks and learned to survive on a shoe string. My sons birthday came durning this time: I cried with fear that he would think I failed him. He happily proclaimed it had been ‘the best birthday ever’. I quit eating meat and (mostly) junk food and promised myself I would take proper care of myself and loved ones. I want to be here, and have the time to do it!
Now I make jam, sauces, breads and host a whole range of skills that I take pleasure in knowing. A person I believed was helpless, is now doing it for herself.
This week has been a busy one. we made an Apple wurzel.
(I’ll post recipie for this soon, its the easiest wine I have ever made!)
The Joker and I decided we would work on making this way of life our way of life.
My mind has been racing, thinking through so many things. Slow and steady wins the race- but we have still a lot to decide! We eagerly visited the acre.
This frightened, and lit the fire under us. We haven’t got any seed money.. Quite literally- we haven’t even got the money for seeds! However, I believe we can borrow a petrol ride on lawnmower to cut the mess back and head to the drawing-board.
We are not sure how to get it off the front of the land, and down to the acre. Then there’s the question of heat and light. Will we keep chickens, or goats? Will my son stay at our currently local school, will he even enjoy the change…. You can see what I mean by a racing mind, eh?
Not to worry though, my smile is wider than ever. It’s a beautiful day and I have made myself some freshly picked herbal tea.
(Chammomile, stevia, rosemary,lemonbalm, mint and pineapple sage)
I’ll post up recipes and pictures as I go along. Best go dust of my shovel first… and pray for a freecyle lawnmower!